anybody who knows me knows i love clothes...a LOT. i can't deny that at times making fashion purchases is a sort of twisted therapy....all the more reason to fast from it. now, it isn't as though i spend more than i have, or impulse buy things i don't wear, i love all my clothes, i wear them all, and my closet isn't insanely over bloated or something. however, more and more i see the need to live simply, and make do with less and make decisions conscious of the effect they have on me/other people/the world at large....the consumerism of our throw away, outsourced, self focused culture depresses me to no end...and this year i am going to practice what i preach in a very tangible and personal way. i have no intention of, after this year's end, to go back to my previous purchasing habits, and every intention of making more conscious clothing purchases and buying secondhand as much as possible. this is more or less to kickstart that sort of lifestyle. and to practice self control.
things might get a bit dicey towards the end of the year as all my jeans happen to be getting old and wearing in certain places...but i'll patch 'em. or wear my skirts or shorts with tights. or whatever. i'm not buying anything new for a year. i need the break from consumerism and let's be honest, i have plenty to wear....even if i have to get a bit inventive to make it work out. everybody i have told this plan to has voiced a certain level of skepticism, because as aforementioned, i freaking love clothes. fashion is one of my favorite things. but it's not like i'm throwing my love of style away. this is a perfect time for me to reacquaint myself with all the things in my closet i already have that i love. so there it is. i'm making a "new years resolution".
had a really nice christmas, very relaxing and pleasant. it snowed all day, and although i'm not a big fan of snow in general, i have to admit it's very pretty....it's really the dirty, wet, soggy aftermath i don't care for. but it's been warm enough and sunny enough that it's melting fairly fast, and that's all i can really ask for. it's funny because all december it hasn't felt like christmas to me at all, and now that it's over, it actually kind of does. weird. but i guess that happens a lot for me...the week between christmas and new years feels more like "the holiday season" or whatever, than the weeks leading up to it. and this really always is one of my favorite weeks of the year. i love new years. not because i do anything so very exciting or special to celebrate it, i mean, sometimes i do, but sometimes i don't, but that isn't really the point...for me, the excitement isn't so much that minute between new years eve and new years day when the year changes over....i mean...who cares. but the exciting part is the start of a new year....january is cold...and i hate the cold....it's sort of awful, but it also feels like the beginning of a time of renewal. the days start to get longer rather than shorter, and a new year begins. of course you can start over any time, you can turn over a new leaf whenever you want, but in january, it feels right. and although i'm not one to make "new years resolutions" exactly, who doesn't want to make some changes for the better when a new year begins?
